My sister-in-law, Melvina, shared with me how important it was for me to decompress. I've been trying to do that ~ not knowing that was what I was doing. In hindsight, I wish I had made arrangements to take a trip for about a week or so. I needed to go alone, relax and get rid of the pressure. For the past several months, I've been in one position: "GO!" I'm exhausted! I've been able to slow down a bit, but mentally, I'm still in the "GO!" mode.
I multitask waaaaaaay too much!!!! I was working on 6 websites at the same time. I finished 4 and planning to finish another in the next few days. As for the 6th one - I might put that on the back burner for a minute or two. Now I'm working on writing - 5 books are in my head. So, I set up folders for all 5 of them and I drop notes and ideas into each folder. That's insane, but it seems like that's how I function. I seldom do one thing at a time, at least not on purpose.
Another friend, Erma impressed upon me the significance of having closure. This explains why from the moment of my mom's passing until the burial, I was pretty much a basket case. By the time we got to the repast, I was fine. I haven't shed another tear. I'm ok now. I have closure, total peace, and no regrets. I still can't remember my mom with much of a smile, but I'm getting there. At least I'm not falling apart anymore.
I still don’t have a handle on that decompress idea, but at least I understand that it is necessary. I may have to work on it a bit at a time and simply change the way I do things.